Project Description
How Much Can You Hold? is a series that experiments with materials made while working through grief and caregiving (March 2021- Dec 2023).
misdiagnosis, patronizing, surprise, denial, grief, illness, cancer pain, sorrow grief, misery, urine, diarrhea, regret, psychosis, opiates, mental health, radiation, surgery, RCMP, paranoia, hallucinations, family, climate change, environmental destruction, racism, sexism, misogyny, population, growth, healthcare, crisis, no healthcare, no GP, long wait times staffing issues, poverty, Senokot, interstitial cystitis, empathy, sympathy, nervous system CT scans, MRI, ultrasound, bloodwork, waiting room, anal probe, vagina probe CT scan with contrast veins, blood, tumor, pleomorphic sarcoma, smaller than a basketball, bigger than a volleyball, starvation, infection, disease pathogens, plastic, medical supply waste, rituals of care, emotional breakdown, loss of self, sacrifice, depression, travel, travel for care, coursework, costs, money, housing and desperation, despair and confusion, shell shock, memory loss, pollution, extinction, colonialism, clean water, incontinence, fecal incontinence, examinations, probing, needles, cutting, slicing, bandages, wound care, pieces, samples, antibiotics, anti-nausea, bandages, gauze, saline solutions, hot water, tank, dishwasher, microwave, heat, wave heat, heat dome, confusion, anger, hostility, noncompliance, teaching hospital, studies, misunderstandings, immaturity, greed, self hate, Google self diagnosis, long wait times, MFA defense, Lifelabs, urgent care, emergency, BC healthcare, dementia?, MOCA test, nurses, doctors, bathing, hygiene, bedwetting, accidents, clothing, weight, loss, mobility, bills, legal services, ambulance, care workers, scheduling, doctors appointments, VIHA, missed phone calls, frustration, meal planning, allergies, medications, prescriptions forms, blister packs, to do lists, broken equipment, computer failure, gas prices, long distances to healthcare and affordability, guidance, recovery risks, dates for surgery, plastic surgeon, thoracic surgeon, sarcoma plan, Plan A, Plan B you lose your ribs, X-ray lungs, bedridden, nursing required, destroying tentacles, radiation, cancer, patient package, last wishes and planning, eyedrops, medically assisted dying, numbness, circulation issues, suicide plan, dealing with practical issues, administration, phone calls, speaker phone, elevator music, COVID-19 lockdowns, vaccination pass to access BC Cancer, vaccination pass for visitation, surgeon, age, old age, children, 811, existing personality, voiding, cheques, skin, bathed skin after radiation, dexamethasone, sore muscles, small nodules, microscopic, necrosis, staples, pre-op, praying for no cancellation, praying, crying, CBD oil, mood levels, untethered, loss of motivation, low sodium memory, loss, anaesthetic, walker, bench for shower, hydrocortisone, ear cleaning, nail cutting, sores, weight loss, shower accessibility, UTI, UTI, UTI, UTI, UTI never ends, seeing demons, 911, toilet height, bladder pain, lack of strength, GP quits moved to Alberta, geriatric nurse, gynaecologist, oncologist, urologist, terrified, terror, dressing change, better meals, soup making, discharged, Covid-19 patients in room, catch Covid-19 recovering from stroke in hospital, passing through Covid unit, invega sustena, respite, lifeline, caregiver burnout, case manager, neuropathic pain, dressing change leaking no laxatives, Pharmasave care, plan, diverticulitis disease, PES unit, hospitals need funding, community care, landfill, incinerator, cradle to grave, plastic waste, toys, pets, wildlife booster packs, medication times, PTSD, staff shortages, new staff every day on hospital floor, re-telling medical history 1000 times, GPS tag, crisis line, crisis team, psychiatry, ambulatory, contested spaces, shared spaces, pets, wildlife trees, zoning, bylaws, variances, setbacks, greed, profit, lobbyists, lost opportunities, mistakes, regret, big city, small town, stress, crime, resources, stretched resources, different perspectives, different abilities, sickness, career on hold, deaths, so many ambulances, paramedics, dying can’t ride a bike, discharge plan, coaches, functional, so many hospital bracelets, diapers on sale, no prolapse, amitriptyline, nortryptaline, bowel health, Cipro Floxin, fosfomycin, amox-clav, 32 antibiotics in 30 months, abscess, cephalexin lidocaine, family conflict, emotional suppression, broken hip left, broken hip right, physio, stage 2 bedsore, walker, wheelchairs, foam cushions, ROHO, occupational therapy, discharge date, pulmonary embolism, exhaustion, loss of humour, no phone call, death, dead body, funeral home, ashes, urn, transport, VIHA home care, 38 care workers, 24 hour nursing care at home, 3am exit attempts, delusions, mourning, grief, falling down stairs, stitches, bruises, more ambulances, ambulance fees, public wait list for long term care, private care alternative costs, dietician, nutrition, re-traumatized, repeating story, pleading, crying, begging, falls, hematoma, hip X-ray, CT scan for head, graphic instructions for how to use toilet, new doctor, wrong diagnosis, again, pain, new treatment, start from beginning, new tests same as old tests, ER waits, health care crisis, carrying, wheeling, lifting, feeding, washing, bathing, toileting, public service announcements in ER by staff, don’t believe Adrian Dix in the news, getting worse, burnout, unions, workplace injuries, Patient Care Complaint Form, bedpans, last time toileting, if the peas don’t get you the carrots will, barium throat X-ray, choking, aspirated pneumonia, mushy carrots, spray mouth with water, vaseline, mouth swabs, mobility device, overhead lift and blue swing, pull oxygen, pull IV antibiotics, actively dying, 30 % lung capacity, dying well, doing a good job dying, feels like chaos, please calm down because how much can you hold?
How Much Can You Hold? series, 2023. Continence care product and Paverpol, 20” x 17” x 7”
How Much Can You Hold? series, 2023. Continence care product and Paverpol, 9” x 8” x 5”
How Much Can You Hold? Studio View, 2023